"Maintain a vigorous sense of perspective. 99.9% of the things that seem absolutely urgent, completely infuriating, massively critical & totally MANDATORY won’t matter (to you, or the universe) in 100 years. Or even 100 days." Alexandra Franzen, my new internet crush.
Lately I have been a raging bitch crab to the people I love most. My dad, my brother, my husband; the three men who I love beyond infinity have been at the mercy of my wrath.
I caught myself in the middle of a tirade last week, and I thought: wow, I don't want to be this person. I sent a text to my friend saying how much of a moody, douchey, biatch I was a being, just to get it out there and share what's real with at least one person. I like to claim my shit out loud so it sinks in deeper.
Thank God for perspective and for blank slates and second chances. I'm kind enough to extend myself grace in small doses every now and again. I know I'm not that person. I also know how to give myself a pass (my cycle app tells me I was in my moody zone).
I apologized to my boys, fully recognizing my actions / reactions without explaining the reasoning behind them. They were totally understanding and let it slide. I meditated on my attitude for a bit and asked for help in turning it around.
If you follow me on instagram, you know that yesterday not 1, not 2, but 3 random hearts fell across my path. I'm taking those hearts as a sign to show myself a little more compassion and to really be mindful of how I treat others. I'm not a meanie all the time, but I do have my days. (Hello human Bella).
Today is a new day, and I am allowing myself to start fresh.
(you can too!)
*You should totally read that post that I linked to by Alexandra. I love that post. In fact, I love most of what she shares on her site. It's one of those places online that I don't feel like clicking away from.